When it’s five am and you need someone more than ever but no ones there so you sleep, hoping you might feel better and that it was all a dream, but you have a job and a life and the world doesn’t stop for anyone. You call to ask for the day off from work and you can barely say why, your voice shakes and your breath quickens and your lungs seem to cave in so you curl up as tight as you can hoping to hold as much as you can together. You are so scared what’s gonna happen next, not only is he gone but that means the house you’ve been living in rent free for 18 years is going to leave with him. The walls you plastered with images and memories are no longer yours. You remember when you were little and learned that not all big wishes come true so you learned to wish small and you wished that he’d make it till you turned 18 and left for college, so that your life would be stable at least till then. There are trees in the yard that you remember being as tall as your pinky and rose bushes that you used to be small enough to crawl through. It’s all going to change now. All of it.
Today’s the day I finish season four of Doctor Who and cry because I’m going to miss David Tennant.
i really like stickers but at the same time i don’t because once you stick them somewhere that’s it, it’s finished, and i’m just not emotionally stable enough for that responsibility
(Source: lilbfan)
